Friday, February 19, 2010 @ 8:28 AM
I think of you every single morning . .
Every single night . .
I can't do the things I used to enjoy.
Every time I think about the future,
which is not going to happen,
my heart cracks.
I want to talk to you . .
But you do not want to.
I am feeling worse this way. .
Do I suck too much?
Why this always happen . .
Same story line . .
Different person . .
But this time , I can feel that I am 10x sadder.
Why ? I dont know.
I really want to be friends with you again.
Because you changed my life ,
without you ,
everything seems very different. .
But , by being your friend. .
Every time I look at you ,
I will think about the past. .
You don't feel anything . .
Or maybe you do.
But I'm sure it doesn't hurt you a little.
As me for , it is a different story.
And now you just want to ignore me. .
One stone kill 2 birds huh ?
I cared about you ,
so I will help you in anything.
Whenever you need me ,
so I will be there.
I love you,
so I'm afraid to mess up .
I know I am not important anymore,
or maybe not even important in the beginning.
Maybe it is all lies,
maybe it is all the truth.
What you tell me before,
seems to be doubting me now.
Have I really changed your life?
Do you really mean everything that you once said before?
If you mean it , you wouldn't be doing this now.
Been a very wonderful month with you.
Hope things will get better.